Saying goodbyes is always hard, especially when people are close to you. It so happens that a friend of ours, Dhuan(well his name is pronounced like this at times by people and since it hilarious I will use this) was leaving for an onsite assignment and seeing him off at airport seemed like a customary thing to do. Dhuan was actually the person who used to drive us around everywhere. This time another friend, Walia ji drove us, a person whose company we usually enjoy in office because of him being ‘The Lively Kind’.
How did it come so far
I drifted a bit away
And you moved apart
As if from
You being Moon and
Me being star
It converted to
You being Sun
to me remaining
I walked up a bit fast
So i can see you
Making efforts to catch up.
And you left your pace
altogether So that
The distances becomes longer.
Lil did you know
I am always present
Even when you started being Sun
i was there faded in your light
On the way when you thought
I will never lower my pace
I almost stopped walking
Looking over my shoulder that you will catch up
And you did but you thought I left you behind wherein at last the case was otherwise.
One thing you should learn sooner or later in your life- ‘It’s always people who are disappointing’. The more you expect out of them, more disappointed you will be left. The root of all the issues here is Expectations. You think the people around you love you as selflessly as you do but the truth is, that is not at all the case. There might be few, which is a rare case but when we talk about majority you will realize that it’s true. I think the moment you start doing something and expect something out of it, 80% chances are you will end up disappointed.
After all this while keeping everything together, she broke. She broke into zillions of pieces and the strangest thing is that made no sound to anyone. When something breaks, people around knows that something is broken. Isn’t that how it is supposed to work? She thought to herself rocking herself back and forth with the puffy eyes and uncontrollable tears still dripping down her eyes. She thought of all the people whom she loved and who loved her, it made her heart twitch. Nobody was beside her or for all that matter behind her to make sure this heartbreaking phenomenon doesn’t paralyse the will and strength of moving forward. She tried standing where she was sitting and the shivers grew stronger with the sobs and she couldn’t hold her weight. All the turbulence inside her heart and mind took a toll. She sat back and sobbed some more. Is it ok to grow weary of people?
She was watching this video of some valley which she was yet to explore and the conversation of last night took a toll. Being a girl does come with a limitation of its own but little did she ever realise that it will keep her from the experiences she long. Her friends asked her for a trip to which she gently refused. The funny part is that did not crush her heart but the conversation with her parents that shattered the strings of the dream she was weaving.
As I sat there watching the sun set
Something inside me sinks and everything inside me melts..
For the darkness takes over
it’s like you scream and you cry
But nothing changes
from the outbursts of the cry
As I sat there while the last streaks of light faded away
I hoped with the spreading darkness
the moon will appear
For enlightening the path
with the guiding light
But it is a new moon night
Nothing to light up the path tonight
As I sat there in the dark night
I could hear a lot of voices of beings
As if they found their salvation
For its the time when
Peace is at its peak
As I sat there struggling and juggling
with the thoughts I realised
the importance of light
Made me realize how ignorant
one can be when
there is abundance of any type.
As I sat there engorssed in my thoughts
It was the first few rays of light
Intercepted the myriad of thoughts
It’s the darkest hour that makes
You realize a lot of things.
For light makes things at times,
hard to refine
The water was extremely cold. My feet were numb after 5 minutes. It was like nothing existed for next 10 minutes until I withdrew them out. The more you let something agonize you, the more it will affect you. Embrace the agony with open arms; after a period of time that too shall pass. After all it will come for you whether you embrace it or not better to make peace with it and learn from it.